What would happen if I taught a class wearing a blue leotard and red tights... The third part of my dream involved how I would like other to respo...d to me, interact with me, and treat me. As a guy, they never think about it, it was be a good feminine trait? The way I interacted with people was as Belinda, a soft, feminine woman. I would like to provide feelings of support, comfort, and belonging. In one sequence I was looking at a young woman's fashion magazine. I would see the new. I wasn't a monster, was I? I wrestled with this every day after I hunted; I was doing it for the good of all not just my own sick needs. But no matter if they appreciated me doing what was good for them; I was to be gone in less than a year never to return.I found as I got better hunting and using my powers the less I needed James, and I think he also noticed. I felt that a space was forming between us. Most nights we would part to hunt and sometimes I would find myself alone upon returning. I started at the school four weeks before the end of last term and just before I left Sydney I'd broken up from my husband of seven years. I was not in a very good head space after the break up and with the stress of starting a new position I started drinking and partying a bit much.When school had finished I'd heard about a party at one of the boys parents houses a few streets away. Being new to the area I didn't know anyone so I invited myself along. The kids were very welcoming and I joined. I resisted the impulse to change,kept doing my job, and kept brainstorming.Moonrise made it possible to get to Themia, but it still wouldn't be easy.Every method I could think of either had a high risk of failure, or wouldtake several days to prepare, or both. If I didn't care about blowingmy cover ID, I could probably get to Themia tonight, silence her --freeing Kim from this world she undoubtedly thought of as a "dystopia"-- and maybe even get out of the prison alive, though in need of a new.