Still, her last statement led Adam to believe she wasn't a knowing participant but rather another unwilling pawn, no different from the Kristi Clears ...nd the Josey Swallows of the world.She would never be able to regain the clout that had been hers for so many years. Her words and actions would always be suspect. Every dictum she put forth would bring calls for someone else to confirm the proffered facts.Adult Medical Services would find itself pushed back into the crevice from which it had. I needed to hear the words from her mouth telling me that she didn't love me.Only I didn't know where to go.I figured the only place she could be was her parents's house. That was about four hours away, but I didn't know where they lived. They had always come to visit us.After a few minutes of searching, I remembered that we had ordered some books for them at Christmas. I found the shipping address stored in our Amazon.com account, Mapquested directions, got in my car and drove off without even. Once the Bonners knew of his real name, the news spread through the small town like smoke from a prairie fire.Sheriff Wade turned to look at Tom with a look of disbelief and wonder.“Are you?” He asked.“Yep, I reckon I knew it was comin sooner or later Sheriff, just didn’t know when. I just told Cal about it this morning after I saw the hat maker drive his peddling wagon into town yesterday, I had a feelin he’d be the one to point me out.”“Well now Tom, I reckon you know that you’ve got quite a. When you were, umm, a baby..." Hence why you asked if we were expecting a boy?" I ask."Jamie..." Dad sighs, before sitting down next to me. "I know- I knowthat all of this success you've had, all this fame and fortune, I- Ican't claim credit for any of it." We've been through this so many times before," I sigh. "Me and mum havetoo. Just now, in fact." Doesn't make it any less true," dad says. "If I could go back and doeverything again-" Yeah, well, none of us can do that," I say. "And I was.