Part 5New plan, I had to turn round and use my head and let it fall on my thighs, at this point I did not care about hurting myself anymore, I wanted ...ut, as soon as I made my first move to turn round the pain board lit up big time.By the time I had turned round and in the right place must have taken an hour or so, with resting and moving was making me feel sick with the pain, I was now resting and sobbing more than moving,I punched the bottom of the draw with my head and the draw flew out,. Going to her sister’s. I was happy, but kind of sad at the same times didn’t want her to leave. But I knew she needed to. She said she would keep in touch. It’s been 2 years now. Nothing, I search the newspapers where she lives to see if anything has happened to her. But nothing yet has come up. I want her to be happy. I want her safe. But selfish as I can be. I want her with me to. Now, yes I still go online, I still have cybersex with guy’s. I’ve had many boyfriends online. A lot of them are. If you fucked up something in the past," he said, "then use the drug to erase it!"Jack, knowing that I could be a real jerk sometimes, had thought that Step Two would be the most useful. Now to implement."Janice?" I asked, gently."Yes?" First, I want you to imagine a box. Can you imagine a box for me?" Yes," she tilted her head up and I could see her holding a mental picture."Excellent. Now, I want you to think of your memories -- the memories you hold in your head -- as physical objects. Looking back I still wonder what on earth was happening to us. Until that day we hadn`t seen each other naked yet here we were with her telling me to ejaculate for her and me willingly doing it. At the time I didn`t think of the rights and wrongs. I often masturbate but doing it in front of my sister seemed to make it rather special. I told her so and she said it was the first time she`d seen a man masturbating and she was pleased to see me doing it. Then she told me that watching me had made.