When she had associated their encounter with BDSM he had been overcome with emotion, shame and anger that she would associate him with something so br...tal, as well as fear that she was right. All he knew about BDSM was that B stood for Bondage and S stood for Sadism, someone who enjoyed causing pain. He didn’t want to accept the idea that even a small part of him might have a sadistic streak. As Alex looked back at the screen in front of him he realized that almost by accident, he had typed. He tried to ring it up twice, then moved from the cash register to a handheld device. Still couldn’t do it. He called a supervisor and she went back to the register, showed him how.”Pilar, “What did that tell you?”“That he couldn’t remember how to ring up cash sales. It’s all plastic or Apple Pay these days.”Which led us into a robust discussion on how far Europe is ahead of us in the cashless movement. And what effect all-plastic and all-digital could have on the poor.Joe-Harlan called me,. " I find the thought so sexy that you're wearing lacy lingerie," shesighed into my ear.I didn't say anything. If someone had heard that!At the next break I was considerably more calm. Up to now no one hadnoticed anything. Biene was talking with Svenja. I greeted them."Hi, Andy," Svenja said, "can you give me the physics lesson?"I smiled at her. "Of course." You're a sweetie." Then she gave me a quick hug.I noticed her glance as she left, but I couldn't figure it out. Why didshe look at me so. The only thing that I dislike is you try to hurt anyone that tries to get close to you.”“Ok, I guess you have your reasons, but remember, I don’t date. I do enjoy having you here to talk with. I guess that you deserve to know one thing. I push people away because I was hurt badly by a member of my own family when I was a teen. That person not only hurt me, but destroyed another member of my family. I don’t want that kind of hurt to happen to me again.”She said; “You surely can’t blame the rest.