He wanted so badly to just be a girl, like Sarah. Free and withoutjudgement. But society wouldn't allow it.Why?Andy couldn't answer that question. It'... just the way things were.But why were they that way?Why couldn't he just be himself? Why should anybody care? Andy didn'tknow, but it was apparent that people did care and they cared a lot. Hefelt like a condemned prisoner that was serving a life sentence withoutthe possibility of parole. But what had he done to deserve it?"Andy?"Andy stiffened. Abbot was not at the bank; as had been his routine for many years, at midday on the last Friday of the month he was flying the last leg of a round trip to Kansas City and his plane was due to land at the Litton regional airport at four in the afternoon. He planned to arrive at the bank before five so that he could finish his business, dismiss the staff for the weekend and go home and settle down with a bottle of Wild Turkey and study the new stroke magazines he had acquired in KC which he had. But that's what we do. My people, I mean. I've been ready to kill, every time." Have you ever stood over one, one who was helpless, and just ... shot?" I asked suddenly.He shot me a sharp look. Then recognition flooded his face. "Oh," he said. "Estrada."I nodded mutely."Jack, forget it," he told me. "That was as evil a man as ever walked the face of the Earth. I saw what had happened. We're a lot better off with him dead." Richard, he was blind," I said compulsively. "He had no hands, they'd. What is…I mean, well…there was something in one of the videos I didnt really get, and… Cody could see that Caleb was struggling with words and wanted, but even he surprised himself at the words that would come out of his mouth. Well, Im not gay, but if you showed me Ill try to explain it to you. Cody couldnt believe what he just said, but he saw Calebs face light up, so he continued along with it. Caleb sat down on the chair and opened one of the videos. There were two boys, each probably.