" I looked at her, trying to gauge her reaction.She was leaning forward and looking sympathetically at me. She encouraged me when she said, "I'm intri...ued. What's an example of something stupid you've said?" Although it is not something too controversial, it is something which made me come across as an idiot." She was still attentive. "In a hotel once, I commented that the stairs only went one way."She started laughing. At first I thought she was laughing at me, but when my expression changed,. Little by little, I’ve been getting frustrated, with her, and with our marriage as a whole. I started going over things in my mind at work when I had a minute or two and as I started putting two and two together, I was coming up with three, Linda, me, and a lover. I wondered if it was possible. I’d tell myself no, she would never do that to me, but then I would think, for what I know about affairs, all the symptoms were there. I thought of hiring a private detective, but I had no evidence,. She did not look atme. With her eyes fixed in her lap she whispered, "He has said he likesme". "I didn't ask you that. Does he like your figure?" "He has neversaid, but I think so" she murmured. "I think that it's time that I saw your figure, don't you?" I asked. She looked horrified. "What are you going to do? she whispered. "Youjust do as I tell you and it will all be OK. You remember what happens ifyou don't?" I felt her shudder. "Stand up and face me" I ordered. This was a critical point.. I don’t. He commands me to undress. I don’t. I don’t even know why, cause I really want to, guess I just want to see if I can gain some control. I couldn’t.I guess that’s me trying to obtain some pride. But then in a matter of seconds he stripped me of my clothes, he tied his belt around my neck so tight I could barely swallow and fastened my hands to it. My wrists met my shoulder blades in a not so gentle way. Somehow I still felt like I had some control, like he was manipulating me.