“And my mind wasn’t really wandering, so much as relaunching a file it saved last night.”“Your pillow talk desperately needs work, love.”“...hat I was also thinking was how extraordinary it is for blowjobs of such surpassing excellence to feel normal.”“Better. But you’re running such a deficit that you haven’t quite earned another one yet.”“Actually, that’s fine. Last night you were all over me, so this morning I want to return the favor.”Her grinding grew a little more rhythmic. “Even better.. I had all sorts of emotions running through my head. I was happy, I was sad, I was scared. After sobbing for 15 minutes or so, I got up and slowly walked toward the convenience store on the next block. I was pissed off because I had forgotten my cell phone. I needed to call Wendy. I went inside the store which was almost empty. That made me feel slightly better. I don’t think I could have handled a crowd. I asked the clerk if I could please use their phone. I explained I had no money to use the. Just like that. Now go between them a millimeter farther each time or two. Yes, just like that. You’re a great student, baby brother.”“Yes he is.” I said in what I hoped was a sexy purr.Then Julie continued her coaching, “Now, take one of her lips between yours and gently lick and suck on it and then the other. That’s it. Do you like that, Deb?”“Gawd yes!” I practically yelled.Julie giggled and my husband let out a chuckle. “Now run your tongue up and down between her lips a few times.”After. Or die.”With that, her presence vanished from the room, her laughter a faint ringing in my ear as her heels thudded against the concrete floor and out of hearing distance. Sobs continued to rock my body. I clutched that man’s hands, and curled sideways, my sobs echoing loudly.He stayed silent, I didn’t know why. His arms, which were restricting a moment ago, seemed to be comforting now. It helped me, even if I didn’t want to admit it. In the moment of darkness, even a fire burning your own body.