" Listen," Brea interjected, "we had set you up with Loreili and it isgreat that you are out of the mourning and being out with someone butyou can't d...ve head first into a relationship like that."Candice remained silent not really being able to explain to them whyshe felt what she felt."You know what," Lana had said, "you had great sex with Loreili andthat has happened after a long time as you had secluded yourself sinceDeidre left you, but you do not pack your bags and move to another. "She pauses for a moment. "It could have just been the thought of something that big about to be shoved up your hoo-haw for the first time. I don't think her new hubby is very big down there." She laughs again and gives me a quick kiss on the cheek. "I guess I did do a good deed. I introduced her to big black cock."On Thursday, as we are heading for our cars at the end of the day, Sara yells over, "By the way, we are going to Keri's house for lunch tomorrow. I already told people we may be a. .”“What are you trying to tell me?” she asked.“We have found,” he explained, “that the best way for people to accept giving up all bodily sensations is for them to go through what they imagined as the best possible experience of their life... or perhaps, of their imagination.” He smiled again. “Both are possible right after death while you still remember what it is like to feel things with your body.”“So all of this was just a memory?” she replied.“Not exactly a memory,” he answered, “because. Yet she found no satisfaction in it. Nothing seemed to satisfy her this morning. Not the drawings she made nor the carvings that lay strewn about her bedroom. She stared outside at the goings on but found them mundane. Why? They hadn’t changed. It almost felt as if she looked at them through a different voice. Impossible. Her earmuffs still sat on her head, wretchedly securing the world in its muteness. In the drudgery, the girl found her thoughts wandering with inevitability towards that boy.