"She hesitated a bit and then she sat beside me and said "Lucas, I amgoing to be really frank with you but you must promise that you don'tpanic and be...calm." She put her hand on mine.I nodded in confirmation."Your mom is right. There is no way you could get it back. Forwhatever insane reason he had, Dr. Shwindt made sure of it. So, Iwould say that it is not a realistic option for you to get it back atthis moment. Maybe in few years, we could discuss that," She paused afew seconds and then said,. We hung out talking,doing some shots, and flirting heavily. He was 27, cute, funny, and I had already made up my mind that I was going to fuck him if the night led us there. I closed up at little past 1:00 am and then he pulls some coke out and for us. We did a couple lines and he asked me if I wanted to hang out a little bit longer. I said yes. He said he knew the perfect place but told me I had to bring 2 6 packs of beer for us. I bagged up the beers, we did another shot and another line,. " I just want you to know, whatever happens, that I have more things to work through. I can't have a normal job, just be someone's girlfriend, not with all I still feel. That man who raped me broke something inside me, Peter. My instant reaction to arousal is rage. It has taken me a long time to push through that feeling, to stop being so angry at my own body and the person I'm attracted to. I wouldn't bring this up at all, but tonight got me so spun up. You were kind enough to let me stay with. Jab panty khola toh pagal sa hi ho gaya aur bas chatate gaya.Woh kuch nahi bol rahi thi. Ab mera confidence to badh hi chuka tha rukne wala bhi nahi tha. Apne kapde utare utare aur phir sex ke liye taiyaar ho gaya. Mom ab boli itne der baad yeh galat hai.Par ab main nahi rukne wala tha aur mom se kaha ki please karne do mujhe jo kar raha hu. Phir eye contact kiya aur kiss kiya. Ab koi protest nahi tha. Phir apna penis unki vagina ghusa diya aur phir humne full on dabake sex kiya. Oh kya feel.