This tension crackles between us. It’s nothing new.I reflect on how sick I am. I get excited just by his eyes on my body. When he traces my curves w...th those stone-cold blue eyes, waves of arousal liquify me. I crave him almost as much as I despise him. That’s disgusting to me, that I can look at this man who keeps me from my family and from my life and feel anything but hatred. That when he touches me, every cell in my body hums with electricity. Catching his scent on clothes I’m occasionally. Mom asked, “Do you like hairy pussies or clean shaven ones? Of course I can let you cut shapes like your father did. He was pretty good at hearts, triangles, and landing strips. Once he started dating Colleen and her mother though, he kept it bald like a little girl’s pussy.”I asked, “Colleen Fisher and her mother?”Mom smiled and said, “Yes, he got Colleen pregnant so they all left the state.”I said, “But she is only a year older than I am and I’m f******n.”Mom smiled and said, “I know how old. " Oh, yes." She reached for the button of her shorts, but Joel's hands were there. He popped the button, unzipped the shorts and pushed her panties to the floor. "Get my purse. It's right over by the toaster."He got the purse and opened it. "Condoms?" No, the little bottle. See it?" Yes. What is it?"She turned around and dropped Joel's pants and underwear. "Give it to me." His cock was already mostly hard when she uncapped the bottle put some of the liquid on her fingers. She knelt and sucked. After my father had carefully made mention of the very real possibility that one word from him out at the Sub base and over at Electric Boat could have the tavern put on the off limits list for the sailors and the boat workers, the owner reluctantly gave his okay to the plan.The two unmarried guys had a second story apartment they shared over on Smith Street, near Fort Griswold Park. There was a used appliance store on the ground floor. My father's plan was that Billy and I were to visit the.