She would need them; she always did.When I talk to Katherine about that moment now, she confesses that she was sending me a signal: she was trying to ...apture my attention but at the time I thought she was out of my league. In a way I still do, but back then, she was completely unattainable. She was my friend, and I treasured her friendship. I thought she had no sexual interest in me because I was not sexy.Even when she travelled to my house for the New Year celebrations at my family's modest. I was tired of it being back there and not being used. We went out on Yellowstone Lake but used one of the park service boats. Carrying the boat was one mistake that didn't need to continue. I tried each night to get on the radio and call on various frequencies. We heard Ben and Roger talking on forty meters but they couldn't hear us. Radio wave propagation works that way. I thought that I heard someone with a four call on thirty-nine seventy but it was faint and I wasn't sure. Cathy didn't. I had to keep from crying so I put my thumb in mymouth. Daddy saved the day soon though and he worked to get through mydiaper cover, tights, and pushed the skirt of my dress up so that hecould get to the diaper that had become way messier with all of hisattempts at removing my clothes."Icky," he said to me with a smile. "You stinky!"I felt more tears going and he said, "Oh don't go crying Princess,you're a baby, this is normal." He tried reassuring me.Daddy had to use many more wipes than Mom. She had done her part, the best she could do. She turned to Keri, who was sitting there like a statue. ‘Keri? …’ she inquired softly, ‘ … Deal?’ Though at base appalled, Keri was strangely composed as she peered at the kneeling man before her. Her heart went out to him. While this was in no way what she wanted for him, or from him for that matter, if this was something that he in some way needed that he was willing to sacrifice and give up so much for, then she could not bring herself to deny.