She took eight friends, including one boy, to the Midway Lanes Bowling Center for her birthday. A few days later, school ended for the year and we got...prepared for summer.I shifted to my summer work schedule and started getting up early every day. It's nice to be able to work in your pajamas, especially since it never took more than two or three hours. When the work was done I weeded the garden or mowed the side yard; the rest of the property was under contract to a lawn service, which came. Real footwear becomes a dream and having a collection of the most impractical kind is a major status symbol. “Next time we go out”, I said, “you got to wear them” and she did. I describe that in “My night out with 27 Asians”.Since that night she has been lapping up FemDom videos, reverse gangbangs, denial, CBT and on and on. And guess who is on the receiving end of this pleasure? Moi. I built restraints in our bedroom; guess who is trussed up and used most often? Ik! Guess which one of us wants. In the end, it is up to the woman if she wants me to fuck her or not. I don't keep a tally of how many I've had or how many have turned me down."I'm a firm believer in doing things the natural way, and that means I fuck without a condom, but because of that, I have to be extra careful. I always make sure that the women I fuck are clean, wholesome gals. There are a whole lot of terrible diseases out there, just waiting for the fool that runs around shoving his dick into any and every woman he. ."Have you tried to control the feelings? Tried to control the process? No, you panicked and went looking for someplace else to put them so you wouldn't have to deal with them. You are one chicken-shit sonofabitch ain't'cha?I was going from feeling nothing to being overwhelmed by feelings. Unpleasant feelings to be sure, but I'd dealt with worse in the past, hadn't I?Could anything be worse than feeling someone you love suffer and die?Could anything feel worse? I'd survived that ... how had I.