Yet it all seemed to make sense, each one built on the previous experience. It’s not that I wasn’t in control, or was doing things against my will... it was more that my threshold as to what was acceptable was being subtly altered all the time. I appreciate Antonia had a lot to do with this and was very clever in her way, but I always knew she was doing it. So, I don’t have any perspective on it. Do you think, given my age, you would have done the same Lisa?’ Lisa had obviously seen this coming. So I tell her this is my first time, so I do not know I am an actually doing it right. So she says wait give me a second and grabs my buddy and inserts into her hole. Wait here the question strikes you all, which hole? That is the surprise which I will mention it in my next episode. So I was like what did she do? But I was experiencing an experience I never experienced in my whole life.That is when I attained my ultimate climax of all these time.But for my surprise, my buddy was still straight. My cousin Greg had been paralyzed in high school during a football game.Diamond would need someone to help her through this, and I was the only one who would. She had burned too many bridges with other people and now had no friends.As soon as she was ready we moved into my new place: a nice home just out of the city. I knew from experience that physical therapy and perhaps counseling was going to cost a lot. Diamond's insurance had just run out as she had faulted on a couple of her last. I'm nowhere near ready for... you know?.?. THAT..." I was notready for this conversation with my Mom, with my boyfriend getting the'talk' from Pop. The whole situation was surreal.As she started to regain control of her laughing, and had stifled it tothe occasional giggle. She told me, "Sweetie I know you aren't, and Istill believe we can trust you on that... Your face though, as soon asyou saw him... I haven't ever seen you smile that big. You really docare about him, don't you?"Smiling.