I wrote:StanHe diedI wasn't readyI know he wasOnce I laid that grief on you, I felt better. You've been most gracious in your comments, both public an... private, but now I'm embarrassed to have taken up so much bandwidth on an off-topic message.This is a message of great joy, and a message of extreme sadness. I'm sad for a life cut far too short, and I'm eternally grateful to have had my best friend in my life for almost 36 years. I've waited a while before posting this, because I wasn't up to. Monday and Thursday."On the bed: "My bed is only for sleep, masturbation and Sex. No food or cigarettes."There were notes that had clear and sometimes strange instructions everywhere. It was erotic and felt as though he were there, drawing me out, making me something that I want to be. I wanted to follow his orders, no matter how bizzzarre. Then, under the pillow, was this note: "Box under the bed, for masturbation only, or for female lovers. Not to be shown to men."I was very wet and excited. Ghar bahat hi bada tha lekin phir bhi Roma Mona aur Sonu ke kamre me hi unke sath soti thi.Thik rat ke 12 baje jab Sonu aur Mona so gaye to raoma chuchap uth kar Rabi ke kamre me chali gayi. Bhan pehele se hi Sudha aur Rabi ka kissing programme cahlu tha. jese hi Roma andar gayi to Sudha ne uth kar brbaza band kar diya. Usne Roma ko Rabi pas jane keliye kaha to Roma thoda sarmai kiyon ke usne pehele kabhi Rabi se bat nahin kiya tha aur aj direct chudbane chali ayi. Tab Sudha ne Roma ki hat. Here!’ Robbie laughed. ‘You have doubts?’ ‘OK, let’s set up the interviews as soon as we can. I don’t want to lose any of them between now and graduation.’ T ‘I’ll look after it. Any particular timing?’ ‘Yeah, tomorrow!’ Tom grinned. ‘Naw, but as soon as you can. I’ll make sure I’m available. It’s our number one priority right now.’ ‘Consider it done,’ Robbie said simply. ‘Now, what about leadership? Any likely candidates for lead hand in the crews?’ ‘I wish I could tell there are, but I.