She was a big star; made a whole lot of porn movies. I’m pretty sure that I’m okay with that now, but I’ve two, no, make that three, remaining d...ubts. The easy one is her; I’m pretty sure that she’s genuinely retired, even though she’s now behind the cameras and in post-production work. The difficult one is me, knowing how many studs she’s been with over ten years in the industry, and wondering if I’m ever going to be up to the job. The third is us, how hard we’re going to have to try to make. I sat down on the edge, gazing around me at the various books and DVD’s on the shelves. There was a pin board at the head of the room, covered in funny pictures and random notes. I wondered if there would ever be a photo of me pinned to it. All in all I was pleasantly surprised by his room. Scott was fiddling with a stereo, eventually putting on some mellow music that I vaguely recognised. That’s when reality sunk in - this was it. I was finally going to become a woman. I got comfy, taking in. I'm wondering if you're trying to deliberately hurt me, or if you just can't stand not being able to meddle in my life?" Kenny, it wasn't like that. Brenda and I were discussing her future plans, for after she graduates. She was the one who first brought up that you and Joyce were leaving the area. She was upset about everyone leaving here but her. I suggested she try to get into college also. It just came up, while we were talking, that she might be able to live with you and Joyce, if she. When I asked him about a corsage with a girl's name on it, a corsage that he had just bought, for it was still fresh, he almost struck me. Then he told me that he couldn't waste his life on me, that there were other women who wouldn't mind sharing - why couldn't I be like them? He wanted me to sit quietly while he was having lovers in every city he visited! He isn't the man I married - he has changed a lot..."I hugged the sobbing girl. Inside me, something snapped and I decided to make a good.