I of course had known I loved him, but actually admitting it to myself was something different. I continued talking, slowly growing deeper in sorrow. ...��I don’t know how to be me anymore. I can’t be Kira, the old Kira, the way I used to be. That’s love isn’t it? When someone changes you, and you realize you can’t go back? …And when you lose them and you realize you can’t go on?’ I broke, and began to sob quietly. ‘I wish I knew how to fall out of whatever this is! Falling in is so easy,. I didn't fire a round." I suppose you didn't hurt anyone when you were tossing grenades every few seconds." Oh yeah, I guess I might have accounted for a couple." Sure, a couple. At least your name was kept out of the bomb tossing stuff. The only mention of you was that you had multiple lacerations from exploding metal. What was that about?" A round hit my leg and metal splinters hit my thigh. No big deal." According to an Army Guard Colonel, you were the field leader that kept his men from. He had raised a point that I myself was going to raise."Why don't a couple of us wait here with these two girls. It's too risky to leave them alone," one of the men in the back seat said."That would be good." I said, seizing the opportunity. "In fact, it would be a big help if about four of you helped me out, because the car is stuck in a ditch. It will have to be pulled out first."There was a short discussion about who should stay with us, then four men climbed out of the jeep. They introduced. ‘Please…I never wanted to hurt you. If I had known…’ He turned from the window to me. ‘This might sound sick…’ Sick? You want to talk about sick? I destroyed our relationship over some pent up sexual tension that needed to be released! How’s that for sick? ‘I’ve hurt you far more than I probably know.’ He whispered casting his eyes down to the floor to his feet. The blush in his cheeks flared up again. ‘I’ve been away from you because…because…’ ‘Because what we did?’ I asked and took a swig of.