"You look like you escaped from 'Night of the Living Dead'," Devlin said. "How do you feel?" Like I should be sick to my stomach," Connie said. She wa... sitting on her bed, staring at the floor. "I take it you put me to bed."Devlin nodded. "You were pretty much out of it." She tossed her books on her desk and sat on her bed. "How much of last night do you remember?" Most of it, I guess." Connie ran her fingers through her hair. "Most of it up until Alexa began feeding me glasses of wine." How. No one else know?" Only Christine."Helen looked at the clock again."I think it's time Lucy started preparing for bed" she sighed. "Makeup takes time to take off properly, you know." I'm aware of that." smiled Lucy. "I have done it before."Helen smiled too."Can I use your facial wipes, Mum? They work well." He knew he had school in the morning and his hair would need to return to boy mode." Then I think I'll just jump in the shower again and let my hair dry normally." Go on then." They hugged.. A new track starts and I grab Trevor and we move together."Let's get some fresh air," I said."Yeah, why not," he replied. We move off the dance floor and on to the landing. He offers me a cigarette and we both light up. While we puff, I move back into his arms and hold him, my hips gently swaying to the distant music. I stood on tiptoe and kissed him, he kisses me back, but without any passion. I persist and he pushed me away."Please Sue," he said, we can't do this, it's not right." Fuck the. I laid in bed for hours that night, in some god-forsaken, crossroad, somewhere far from anywhere, reflecting on the blessings I'd lived through, and how they all seemed to turn on me, one way or another.Beth Ann died right beside me in the Tahoe, when the mob sent their killers after us. Jack helped me kill those who had a hand in her murder, and I was merciless going about it.Rebecca died twice, once by her own hand. That nearly killed me. There was no one to blame, and no one to go after. She.