I waited for the beep, and then focused on the first gate... gettinalmost tunnel vision going down.... When I got to the bottom he was silent. Appare...tly I had just beat the boys record for my age by 10 seconds, and Iwas 2 seconds behind the adult womens record. We went in for lumch, and heate. Once finished he said he would be right back and to wait. He came backwith an 30-something lady he introduced as Ashley.He said she would be watching my snowboarding this afternoon. Basically. Was I about to take the ‘walk of shame’ through Darren’s shared house? To leave with his friends watching his latest conquest sneaking away, knowing she was married and old enough to be his mother?Was I about to acquire a similar nickname to my daughter who was now known at University as ‘Izzy-Oh-God’ following her orgasmic exclamations?Could I escape without being seen or recognised? And if I did, would Darren kiss-and-tell anyway?There was no choice; the longer I waited, the more likely I was. I still held her hands tightly & said today you have to do it for me. I was so desperate that I instantly pulled her towards me & hugged her tightly & started moving my hands around pressing against her back. My s*s felt the sexual urge & gave an instant moan. Then I released her from my hold & asked her again, Please kiss me.This time she moved forward & touched her lips with mine & backed off immediately. I said thats not fair. She said that is enough. I told her that I dont want to have. "Val can you ring Trisha andMichelle a taxi please, it?s for the Hilton."We stepped outside just three girls Bethany puled out a pack ofcigarettes as we lit up the I could feel the chill of the coolingnight air on my bare legs and shoulders and shivered a little. Ifinished my cigarette and excused myself and went back to the toiletinside I had to look in the mirror this was beyond belief could I dothis again well if I was then I needed something I opened the bag andswallowed another two tablets.