.. Carmen and I exchanged glances as she chatted away happily about Mitch then moved on to how much she was looking forward to seeing Steve alter and ...ow hard the poor man had to work. She didn’t mention sex directly but there was a bright sparkle in her eyes that both Carmen and I had come to recognise. She was desperate to be fucked! How on earth could we break the news about Steve’s delay by yet another day? In the end the question was taken out of our hands. Alice asked straight out when we. Her Granny picked her up from the theatre and I took the bus home. It started to happen that I would often go to her house whenever there was a holiday, and I generally could convince my parents that I was going to a friend’s house. Those were seriously innocent days, and our pure affection for each other, was expressed in tiny ways. I would take a flower from the wayside, while cycling to her house, and she would luagh and put it in her plait, which she wore just one, while at home. She would. .but they always do...once Pandora's Box is open the world they once knew, the world they thought they understood is completely shattered as is their own understanding of themselves. Having a cock in your mouth is the most natural thing in the world. From breast feeding, to sucking on a bottle, to having a soother in your mouth, to sucking on lollipops and Popsicles, we are trained from birth, literally brainwashed to suck. Which is why it seems so ironic that gay sex, a man sucking another. Carnations were Kaye's favorites.I looked down at Kaye's simple marker, with her name, date and a simplemotto: "Our Beloved." We never knew our dad as he died when we werekids. Mom's favorite line, when she wanted to tell us somethingimportant, or was feeling mellow, was to begin whatever she was sayingwith "my beloved." It was a special thing for us, and I'm glad Cassiedecided to use it."Hi, sis," I said to Kaye, wherever she was. "I'm sorry it took so longto visit. That little whammy you left.