We didn’t cry in front of each other: somehow sharing our tears would have made the whole nightmare even more unbearable.Having undressed, I put on ...y bathrobe before flopping onto my bed where I sobbed into the pillow until there were no more tears left. It felt like sand had replaced moisture in my ducts. Grief is exhausting, and crying always made me tired as well as providing the mother of all headaches.I fell asleep at some point, sheer exhaustion overtaking me. My mind shut off, like a. Remember Tennyson’s ‘Nature, red in tooth and claw’ in In Memoriam is a decade prior to Darwin’s Origin.”“I’ve never read all of In Memoriam.”“Not much of a loss. Remember, I may never read all of Orlando.”“Well, you should try. Are we near a – uh – secluded place?”“Yes. But I’d not engage in any activity. There are snakes, insects and spiders in the brush. We wouldn’t have much fun.”“Oh. I saw myself as Angelica, but I’d not seen you as possessing Ruggiero’s comic aspects.”“You’ve lost. I missed her so much. I gave Kathy’s reanimated dispossessed body to my murdered wife Carla. Holding her n my arms again, kissing her, is a joy. Carla clings just as tightly to me. Why give her Kathy’s body? Same size and very similar around her eyes as the original Carla. Carla wasn’t blond of course, but she can dye her hair if she wants. Carla’s skin was light brown. Kathy’s lost her suntan, her present pallor is frozen turkey pale. Wonder why? Carla fits inside Kathy, and the two together. Eega john anu kaal amdye bandu shiplha anu olge hogalu dari torisu ennalu shplha nagutta john tuniyannu tanna bayalli tegedu kondu nekkatodagidalu. Ill naanu stella mattu shilpha avaribbaru kundegallannu hichukutta rasa kari dengatakke tayaragiruva anu tullanu noduttiralu ravi stella kalu meletti avala tulligi bayi haki nekkatodagidanu. Istu hittigagale shilpha joh tunniyannu nigirisi adannu eledu anu tulla tutigalannu beralind agalisatodagi omme tunni pingavannu tullige talisuvudu mattomme.