"I may be able to if you tell me what it is you want help with, Ms?" her voice rose a little at the end in turning her response into a question.I real...zed that Ms Tannenbaum didn't know my name and I said, "Frances Smith, I'll probably have your class next year." So Frances," the pretty young teacher said, "what brings you here when you should be eating lunch?" I was hoping that you could show me how to alter this." I extracted my skirt from my backpack. "So I could wear it a bit longer and. "I hope you using protection when having sex with guys"I look at her shocked and get a little bit more excited, "I do have a good sex life but I always feel like I'm not good" I respond. She gets up and walks over to me. "When fucking men you must own them and make them yours, thats why I have that strappie, nice and big and show them that pussy roles. Guys like that, love begin fucked in the ass" she give me another dirty look. "I never knew guys like that" I say getting up and setting on the. . and I'm writing this like a journal so I'm not on line.Retrospective means looking at the past ... my past. Introspective means looking inside yourself. I think I'm doing both.I met someone today.I need to look inside myself to see how I feel about that. I need to look back at the day and see why I feel different than this morning.I think I found a friend.He's older ... lots older.He came off the tour boat in a power chair and ran off the slats into the sand. The slats: Daddy and The Twins. Shit happens, and she wanted no part of a fucked up deal.Conrad sighed. "He checks out the coke, calls back to where you are. They like what they see; they give you the money, and leave here with the product." And?" she said, a glimmer of concern flashing over her face."And nothing," Conrad said, "No opportunity for any funny business."She bit her lip, unconvinced."Anyway, I got this baby," he told her, and revealed the .38 Colt Detective Special under the windbreaker, neatly tucked into the.