At the end of it I was a sweaty, cum-covered mess. I went to the bathroom to shower and clean up while they stayed back in the dorm room. I could hear...them talking, but couldn't make out what it was while I showered.When I got out James stood in the doorway."Drop your towel," he said." I obeyed. "Come here."I followed him. DeSean and Andrea were on the couch. He had me get on my elbows and knees in front of them, but instead of going towards my mouth, he went behind me."Stay still," he. But something didn’t make sense. Admittedly, Felurian was lovely. Skilled? Without a doubt. But to the extent that every man died or went insane? No. It simply wasn’t likely.I don’t mean to belittle the experience. I don’t doubt for a second that it had, quite naturally, deprived men of their faculties in the past. I, however, knew myself to be quite sane.I briefly entertained the notion that I was insane and didn’t know it. Then I considered the possibility that I had always been insane,. She handed me my shorts and she said, “You have to leave now.” I wanted to ask if I could stay the night but sensing that she commanded, “No!”Sheepishly, I took my shorts and put them on. In the diminishing light, I could barely make out a shadow. Is that her? I moved forward to kiss her goodnight and I heard a loud hissing sound. Startled, I slowly walked out of the cabin, but not keeping my gaze from where I thought she was standing. I had genuine fear at that moment. I turned back to look at. I guess you do not know that Carl is on a business trip, and not available." Oh, I know that quite well. To tell the truth, it was not him I was coming to see."I continued smiling and I could see that there was some worry in her eyes. I knew that she knew - at least something. Certainly she knew about Hanna and Carl - and Emily. But in her circles that kind of thing would not be discussed openly, ever."From what I heard, I supposed that you would not be coming back here, Joel?" Why wouldn't I?.