So she soldiered on througha stomach churning night of good cards, bad cards, ups, downs, more downs andstill more downs, until ? when the closing bel... rang ? she was a little morethan two thousand dollars in the red. Later that night Kevin did miraculous things with his tongue in all the rightplaces, but somehow the half dozen orgasms he induced failed to lift her entirelyfrom a darkening funk. She tried to take her mind off the financial hole shehad dug by concentrating on increasing the. I could see the visions of grandchildren dancingin their heads, but I couldn't bear to tell them the truth. Maybe I wasliving a lie. I had the best of both worlds, most of all the acceptance ofboth, but love was blinding me to the inevitable truth. A few months later he was notified that had been accepted for SRS inTrinidad, Colorado. Sometimes I'd like awake and wonder if I'd miss thatpenis that had become so small, so helpless, and weak over time. Somehowit still seemed to call out each. Tommy, sell me the end lot, the one all the way over by the old logging road. I'm going to build Dana and me a house out here and raise kids."Dana asked, "Can you help us design a house too, Tommy? If you can do as good a job on our house as you've done with your place, we want you to do it."I told Dana and Jeff, "Go see Gerald. He'll write up the contracts for the property and he can write up the contracts with Sam as well. That'll keep you busy this morning. Come back this afternoon as Zena's. A nurse will look after you and then when you are better you can return to work. You always looked at women as if they were sluts, and now you are one. Lucky girl. Bye bye." Janet left the room. I immediately reached down between my legs. It was gone! All of it, I could only feel smooth skin and no balls! I grabbed the small hand mirror from the bed table and held it out so I could see. My balls were gone! My dick indeed had been smoothed out between my legs. I had no manhood left. I.