But, much to my surprise and initial chagrin, the next time I met withher she did everything she could to talk me out of it. I only learnedlater that ...his was her professional tactic to make sure I knew what Iwanted and understood all the consequences and ramifications of mydecision. Once she was sure I knew what I wanted and understoodeverything about the impact it would have on my life, did she tell meof the number of women she had treated over the years who despisedtheir breasts and wanted. My secret bed partners are carefully selected for their discretion, their submissive natures, and above all their loyalty and desire to please me in all respects. My current paramour is a lovely girl who works at the local library right here in our small corner of the world. Her name is Julia and my juices start to run whenever she comes into my field of vision. She is a full 10 years my senior but quite juvenile to me in most matters of mutual concern.Julia is a girl who always "showed great. I feel the rush of excitement sweep over me at the reaction this gets. Her whole body trembles and she throws her head back. I feel her push down harder on me and she begins to move her hips. Slow teasing circles. I want to sit up and put her nipples into my mouth but she won’t let me…instead she takes my hand and guides it between her legs. Then I feel for the first time just how aroused she is. Her clit so wet already, my finger tip just skims over it…and she lifts her hips so that I can. Christi, I've been losing my mind for the past month. I'm going insane and it just gets worse and worse every day. I'm hallucinating, I'm hearing voices, I'm having horrible nightmares that won't let me sleep, and I'm blacking out and doing things that I don't remember doing, or remember them only too late. I might even have killed that cop. Christi, I ... I murdered someone last night, without knowing it. I woke up this morning next to their bloody corpse," he stammered, feeling tears of guilt.