I don’t want to give this illness one bit of credit for anything but it’s destructiveness in my life. I have learned there are levels of pain that...I never knew or even dreamed existed. I learned how a disability changes the way people perceive you. I know what it is to be pushed past the point of giving up. A place where you pray to die and mean it. I have been humbled and humiliated. It’s horrible.While it has wreaked havoc in my life I did manage to see some good and learn a few things. It is. ." He begged. We slowly started kissing, little pecks here and there, and then we started to get more into it as we sucked eachothers lips and our tongues rolled all over eachother moaning. Holding onto me and moaning, he begged me to fuck him while still kiss me. "Fuck me... fuck my ass come on.. fuck my gay ass please...." I grabbed his ass cheeks holding him still as I started thrusting and pounding him. He let out loud moans as my cock slammed into his asshole. "yes! fuck me! fuck my ass. I am ashamed to admit that I began to cry out loud.At the end of this reign of blows, I knew my bottom must be very red. It was certainly sore, but I was still hard as a rock. But even with tears streaming down my face, I liked this, the way I was being roughly treated by mom and this strange man and I wanted more. And more was what I was going to get. Still prone lying on the couch, I felt Wally apply a lubricant to my asshole and a butt plug was forced into me. 'Now kneel and kiss mommy's. I had made Steve waitalmost a month after I gave him a bj before I let him "go all the way"with me. I gave him head a couple times a week but I made him wait before"popping my cherry". The first time hurt some at first but he was gentleand patient and I grew to love having his cock inside me and filling mewith cum. But I desperately needed to talk to Jenny. She had replenishedmy supply of hormones regularly but I was running into a problem.I had been on HRT almost four months. I had grown.