But she was honest. Be honest. And maybe it's my last great moment. I lost inspiration and got lost and turned to junk and maybe if I go away for awhi...e I can find my muse again. Let me go, Mother. Be happy that I'm trying to get straight and have something important I want to do, even if it is farming." Farming," she mumbled shaking her head. "We should get back. We'll talk."While joining my grandmother, I said, "The plans are set. I'm leaving the day after tomorrow." Are you okay?" asked my. 1 Tuesday,8 November 2005 It had been another long day. Jessiescrewed her tired eyes shut, fingers still resting on the keyboard. She had anidea for another story in the back of her mind, but had been too busy to writeone word. It was well past her usual finishing time & her work was almostdone. There was no one left in the office- the coast was finally clear. Openingher secret folder, she brought up a new document & started typing. The cares of the day washed away as shedrifted into her. "Yes, he made 32 of them before he ran out of gold. They are hidden in the back of the ceremonial hut, along with the remaining silver and amber." How much amber is there?" I would guess that there is at least 20 pounds of amber and 18 pounds of silver left. Why do you ask. I never learned how to make the amulets, I am sorry to say." Don't worry about that. I'll explain why, later. That large quantity of amber is very important, though. I want to gather everything up when we get back. Right. I need a day break let’s roam out”. Mom said, “nothing doing go to school tomorrow no bunking and why do you care about me suddenly”. I said “do u want the truth or lie” mom said “truth” I said “because I don’t want 4 people to come tomorrow to fuck you” she got shocked and showed her the video I recorded she left shamed and took it from me and I smiled and said “I have n no. Of copies to show to papa” she pleaded for forgiveness and said she will end all. I knew mom would never get rid of her.