' One of those was Holly a fat girl who was in my class and was my age and the other three were older. The rest were about as active as me. We had all...been titted up of course and most of us had been fingered. Some of us claimed to have had climaxes as we called them, we weren't yet familiar with orgasms. I had let one boy undo my school blouse and with another I had taken my tee off, but I had not yet been naked with anyone. I had got to point where I wanted to go all the way. I wanted to find. I felt guilty over the breaking of marital vows, but what vows had she kept for me? I was certainly not loved or cherished, let alone honored or even remotely obeyed. Those 3 hours of sheer joy probably saved my own mental health. For those few brief moments someone ‘cared about me’ and I was able to experience genuine and compassionate lovemaking! I realized then that my current life utterly sucked and something had to be done other than the current status quo of both of us wallowing in utter. "Alex put his hand over Martin's and said consolingly, "Well, we canalways go back to being our old selves later. I mean, it's not as ifthey can turn us into total... sissies... and keep us that way." But if that's who we really are..." Martin began worriedly."Don't think that way," Alex told him, putting an arm around hisshoulders and pulling him near. "Please. We can fight this."Martin turned his head. Their faces were close together. He said,"It's just that she and her friends have been. Run alongnow, hurry up."William stood for ten minutes in the shower, at first, he just wanted toscrub the filthy stickiness off himself, scrub away the memories, thedisgust, the horror. Then as he washed himself, he began to feel confusedand before he knew it his little penis was erect and wanton again. Hegave himself a shake to try and clear his head and he turned the showeronto cool in an attempt to pull himself together.He dried, telling himself he was stupid and it was all too wrong.