”“But she kept on looking at you and she had her hands all over you.” said Elena.“I think that is a little bit of an exaggeration. Yes she is ... hands on kind of person. Especially with people she knows really well. She’s been like that with me since we were little kids. And besides even if she wasn’t a lesbian she’s my cousin.”“Oh. She is? That’s good to hear.” stated Elena.After we got in the car I waited a moment then asked, “If she had been some other girl and she had asked me to go in the. We’d be no match for your strength.” He was playing with Kyle, but Kyle was too arrogant to realize it.Kyle looked at them smugly. “Well I suggest you move along before I show you what I do with guys who talk back to me.” The strangers got up and packed their stuff and left, while Kyle continued to sodomize Claudia.After they were done having sex, she was a little upset. “Why did you say I was just some girl you knew from college?”“I’m not ready for you to publicly be my girlfriend yet.” . And there the track ends.I've been going the wrong way. All I've done is walk down a very long cul-de-sac.Shitbags!I sit on one of the smoother boulders strewn around the depression, myfingers immune to the despair clouding my vision as they busy themselvesarranging the folds of my dress. Not since I made the discovery that I'd befemale for the rest of my life have I felt so low.But I refuse to cry.I didn't then and I won't now."Bir bolmak hemme..."Not you again!Can't you leave me in peace?I. I obeyed out of fear. Frankly, I didn’t believe in myself in any way, shape, or form. I landed a great job, making more money than I ever had up to that point in my young life. It made me feel good to know I could financially handle my own life. In the back of my mind, I knew I wanted out of my horrible relationship, but I didn’t know how. I felt stifled. When I started my new job, I even had to ask permission to go out with my co-workers. If I gained permission, I would get the third degree.