"Jack, I'm scared. I gave myself to you, and now I'm afraid you don't want me." She bit her lip. "I ... I love you. Why is that wrong?"On top of every...hing else, Jack suddenly felt like a jerk. In all his own selfish feelings of guilt, he'd forgotten how she might be feeling about everything. He'd just automatically transferred his own emotions on her. "Allison, I..." He stopped, realizing his brain was empty. He fumbled with his thoughts for a minute. "I'm sorry. I DO want you. I've wanted you. ‘What are you looking at?’ I asked. ‘What? Oh… Uh… Nothing.’ Her face turns bright red and she giggles as she turns away from me towards the front of the room. What was that about? I thought after a few moments. As I work throughout the period, I sometimes catch her watching me out of the corner of my eye. I learned her name was Alice Fieldings and she was ten years old. The staring was kind of bothering me so I decided to talk to her after class was over. After the bell rings, everyone jumps. Shewhispered into the phone. The machine double-beeped and dropped a redtablet on the tray. That went to a fourth shot glass.Sheila hung up and said, "Everything is set girls, my way or death."Sheila took out another shot glass. She also took out a small flask ofwhiskey. Sheila said, "All right girls. What will it be? Life or death?"Alan and Dave said, as one, "Life."Sheila set aside the glasses with the black tablets. Next she filled theother three. The one with yellow went to Alan. The red. Ab mujhse raha nahi gaya aur mai uski gaand ko katne chumbne laga.Aur uski gaand k ched ko soongne laga ek ajab si smell thi wo jo achi nahi thi pr jise soongh kar ajeeb maza arha tha. Mujhe lagta hai almost har mard ko aurat ki gaand smell karna pasnd hai sb mana karte hai pr sbko psnd hai. Mujhe uski gaand ko soonghne m ajeeb maza arha tha aur mujhse raha na gaya aur mai uske gaand k ched ko chumne aur chaat me laga. Wo apne ched ko excitement k karan andr bahr kar rahi thi aur m chaat kar.