I figured that the best thing for me to do was stay in my hotel room for a couple of more days and that night, after work, I went back and registered ...or two more days. The next morning Gloria called me in her office."Where have you been?" Staying a hotel." That won't do. With the court case coming up now more than ever we must keep up appearances. I shudder to think of what the opposition would make of your staying in a hotel if they found out. I can't stand the sight of you, but I need you to. “Done what?” He asked with a confused tone. “Done anything with a relative?” I responded “No” he replied “Oh, me neither… this is a first…” I whispered quieter, as he got closed to my face. His lips then came to touch mine, and he lightly licked my bottom lip, and I sighed. I then closed my eyes, as he closed his, and he kissed me passionately, just like in my dream. I grabbed around his head, as he tugged on my t-shirt. I was breathing extremely heavy, and my heart was racing, my. That surprised me because he had been out of my head, until Susan and I started looking into his death.I saw him as plain as day. He was standing in my doorway, saying over and over, “Don’t Ray ... please Don’t!”I saw myself getting out of bed and walking up to him, but as soon as I did, he evaporated away from me.I cried after him, “Dad, d-don’t leave. I miss you. I need you. I miss you. I need you...”“Ray, RAY, wake up, come on Ray, wake up?” It was Susan. “Don’t worry, I’m here. I’m here to. But he was so nervous that he didn't sound so convincing, so she repeated the question:"How do you feel about it?" Look, aunt Lucy, incest is not something that I'm willing to give up. So far, it has been wonderful. I had so many great experiences, I learned so many great things..." How old were you when this started? How did you joined them? Why? How did you feel?"Lucy was divided. Part of her wanted him to say that he felt he was forced and abused, another part wanted him to say that.