But this time I told him to go up further , and as his fingers touched my thighs my heart beat increased , my mouth went dry and I felt sexual tension...building. What am I doing I thought, this would lead to &hellip,. My God no sex with this ugly, black man no way, I shivered with the thought. No way , my heart told me this was just an innocent massage , I was never going to do this, not with this ugly boy, never!!! , but no harm in enjoying my own sexuality, I would control it when needed, I. Quite by accident (true!), from time to time we’d brush into each other when we were resting at the end of the pool. One morning I’d been following Doreen and, feeling rather more randy than usual, I’d got a bit of a hard on. Doreen brushed into me as she finished swimming a length and her hand landed straight on my stiff bulge. It was an accident for sure, but I did notice that she didn’t rush to pull her hand away immediately. In the weeks following that, it seemed that these little accidents. Hell he didn't need to tell me twice, I went over to him dropped to my knees and started to suck on his now rock hard cock. Man he tasted nice, I've only practiced on dildos giving head but from the moans I think I was getting it right. After a bit he said to me get on your hands and knees, I stood and took off my jeans and then turned around, got down on all fours. He came up behind me and spit on my pussy for lube and stuck his cock all the way in my hole till his balls slapped my sagging. ‘Besides,’ I whisper. ‘You dont have to cum in me. You can pull out. You don’t precum that much.’ It is a lie. I feel your precum coating my fingers as I speak. As I lie. If there is a God, I will go to Hell for this. It will be worth it. You laugh. It is breathless. Desperate. ‘I can’t, baby. I can’t with you!’ Your voice begs me to tell you no. To save us from this mistake because you can’t say no. I won’t. I will only get you this once and I will have nothing less than everything. I will.