00 last week! A couple of years ago, I won $200.00!" But if you buy one ticket a day, you're paying $365.00 a year to win $200.00 every couple of year.... Instead, why don't you put a dollar into an envelope every day, and when your numbers come up, take the money out of the envelope. I guarantee you'll win more than $100.00 or $200.00 every time your numbers come up." Why should I? It's the only way I can save money. What if I stop playing and my numbers came up? I'd lose hundreds of dollars. So. "Is that why you're home early? Checking up on me, Steve? Afraid I'd get bored with you gone to who knows where all the time? Worried that I'd find someone that appreciated me and could be persuaded to stay close, rather than wandering all over the place, neglecting their husbandly duties?"Now I was caught by surprise. Brooke was complaining about my business trip? She had never mentioned any problems with it before."You know very well where I go and why," I shot back. "You don't seem to mind. She walked Rachel to the chair my mother had placed to my right. I looked at Rachel after she sat down; she was staring at Taylor with the majesty of a woman who had gotten exactly what she wanted.The look confirmed what I suspected; Rachel wanted me to take a defining step. She had accepted my relationship with Erica nonchalantly; it was the first time I saw that she had been the most threatened by it. Rachel was offering herself up on my terms as the reward for solidifying an allegiance made. My girlfriend was out of town for the week and I had spent a good part of my nights looking at gay porn and fantasizing. I would dress in her panties and lingerie and fuck myself with her dildo. Each day my desire for the real thing grew greater. I had heard about a park by the lake where gay men would pick each other up. On Saturday afternoon I got brave & decided to see if it was true. As I drove through the park, there were plenty of men out & about, & it was obvious what they were.