It makes me feel even worse for Nikki. My cell goes off, it’s my buddy Joel. He tells me there is a party tonight and we should go. I haven’t been...out in weeks, so I say I’ll go. I head to get ready, before going to pick him up. When we show up, after grabbing our own supply of booze, we can tell the party will be huge. It is, of course, one of Ashley T’s parties. She has many throughout the summer. It seems, even after graduating, she’ll continue with them. She is, or at least, was the high. About 10 min later my door slowly opened. It was Lindsay. She was wearing one of Matt's t shirts and nothing else. That got my attention. But I figured she was just playing with me again.She hopped on the bed and asked me what I did all night and what bars I went to. She seemed a little nervous and more direct touching my leg through the sheet. I thought at first Matt fell asleep and she wanted to play around (which would have been ok with me) but then she grabbed my arm and said,"Come with. I am sure that Jana has much totell you." He called my son "Jana" which he said meant "God's gift." Hesaid, "She is a gift from God to me."I said, "Well I'm sure that you understand that this is my son, not mydaughter. Not a 'she'." She is now, Father of Ours," he said to me. I looked at JJ and he justnodded. Of course that occurred to me what that meant. JJ was dressed aswoman, was shaped like a woman, and sounded like a woman. I did not wantto think about what it meant. I sort of put. I fought back tears as thoughts of my mother entered my head. But they were soon replaced by the desperate fear that came back as my father again pressed his penis into my closed mouth. "Open it!" He growled, this time grabbing a handful of my hair. I felt tears rolling down my cheeks as I slowly opened my mouth out of fear. His penis touched my lips as he began to pull my head down towards it. I opened my mouth as wide as I could, trying not to touch it. But my efforts were in vain as I felt.