It was because of me syxx had nothing to do with any of it. Granted he did say he would not do it again but the reason we did was syxx lost his mother... " ..... " syxx was vulnerable because he had lost his mother i only offered the suggestion because my mind kept thinking about what it must have been like for sera to experience that kind of feeling. " I do not expect you to forgive me but i want you to forgive syxx. It was never his intention to have his way with me. Please think about it.". “How are you feeling?” he asked her in between.“I feel different. I feel so good,” the village girl replied.“Now kiss me back. You feel even better,” he encouraged her.“How babuji..how to do that?”“Like this. I suck your lower lip and you suck my upper lip,” and he groaned in pleasure when she sucked his upper lip innocently.“Yes dear, just like that,” saying so he passionately kissed her and moved his hand to her waist. She was a quick learner. She now kissed his lower lip.“This is the first. We both said,"No, we weren't doing that." But we were so shocked by the extremelydegrading nature of her comment that we both thought it better to justpretend it never happened and not confront her again over it.I can't pinpoint what was causing my mother to suddenly treat me exactlyas my aunt had done. On the other hand, from my mother's point of view Iwas in my 30's and unmarried with no girlfriend in sight. Perhaps thatraised some red flags for her that I could be gay and she wanted to. Free flowing alcohol, a rare commodity and privilege, in order to loosen inhibitions of the predominantly young officers, knowing that the men would hook-up in numbers, then used the room and base search results as his measuring stick. The man was no fool, assuredly he had his spies on base and had prior knowledge of the illicit meeting places and a premonition that a drunken bunch of horny soldiers would conceivably flock there that night.Others from the base would be invited to stay the night.