I know the clerk, he told me that Chad and his wife just checked in."I couldn't speak. I felt like a lump in my throat. I thanked Traci for the phone ...all and ended it. I drove my car to the Holiday Inn to check it out. I asked for the room number my husband had checked into. He was going to call the room, but I told him not to bother, he was expecting me. He looked at me like I was a hooker. I took the elevator up, found the room, and knocked on the door.I could hear laughter inside the room. " She said you were really good." Not anymore." I couldn't help but let out a loud sigh."With sex."Oh, that was what she meant!"She told you?" I said surprised."Girlfriends tell everything to each other." Oh." I didn't know that."Brianna told me and Alex all about your first time. My sister and I were wondering if Brianna was ever going to do it." I don't want to talk about it," I said. This conversation rekindled the ache in my heart and my longing for Brianna. I missed her so much."Brianna. To.. help” she mumbled.We started at each other a few more seconds before she burst out laughing.“I see you are having fun,” she said as she walked into the room, still laughing.She noticed the clip playing on the TV. “Interesting choice” she commented.My best friend was no longer laughing but looked a bit embarrassed herself. I put my face in my palms, there was no going back from this, Sheena would remind me of this day every day till we graduate.I looked back at her, she was smiling. And it couldn't be my long black hair, styled in "bunches" like "Abby" from NCIS, or my bright red lipstick and "Goth" make-up, or the scarletpolish on all my nails, hands and feet. The tats on my bubble buttcheeks that read "W" on both sides could not be blamed either.Yet as soon as I got out of my pick-up, dressed like this at 2am in the busy truck park, I attracted attention.WHY?I've been stoping here for ten years .