“There are days when I wonder how you manage to get out of bed in the mornings!” Al laughed. “For a smart, educated man, you are clueless about ...uite a few things. A meeting. Alcoholics Anonymous. Twelve-Step programs. I’m sure you’ve heard of those!”“Sorry, I just didn’t get the ‘meetings’ reference. Anyway, I have no idea if she’d go or not. But isn’t the important thing to remove the trigger? The thing that makes her want to drink?”“You of all people should know that you can’t remove all the. Not being able to get out of sight, I decided to look up andtake my lumps. I may not have been strong but I wascertainly emotionally stable enough to know how to take mymedicine.John was still staring at me. I didn't know what to do so Ijust stood there, looking deeper and deeper into hiswidening gaze. Any second I was sure that I would be face toface with his soul. The k**s, all yelling, pushed aheadsuddenly and I fell forward onto my hands and knees. I guesshe sort. She came on a Saturday and I picked her and two of her friends to Novotel and we checked in two rooms one for those both girls and the other two for us. As soon as we entered the room I locked the door and gave her a liplock.She: why are you in a hurry let’s come back soon and do whatever we wantMe: only after a kiss.We hugged so tightly and she gave a good kiss and we went to the bar to have some drinks.All the three girls had vodka and I had a beer (tip for guys, never have vodka before sex)I. Uh, anytime. When's good for you?"They worked out the details. Later, he tried to discuss it with me but I shut him down. "It's cool. Do what you want." I kissed him because I knew my tone was pretty harsh. "Really, it's cool." He shrugged and went back to watching the game.Every morning, I still swim at five am. When Alex was around, I stopped by his room and left him instructions for the day. Most mornings it was just a standing order not to be a walking hazard. Some days, though, I left him.