I’d never seen a gay mag before, I didn’t really know anything about gayness, back then we said ‘queer’. I just took the one gay mag, wouldn�...t hurt to have a look I guess. That night I came so quick I’d barely turned the first page, I got cum all over my uniform and had to go inside to clean up. I didn’t stop thinking about the cocks I’d seen in the magazine, men actually kissing. Wow! even touching each other. The next night armed with two carrier bags I prepared to go back. I had a clean. None more submissive than the other. Both able to give and receive in equal measures.The next day started and so did the next DVD. Once again it was preparing us for the day when the psychological counselling was to start.As the Gentec message faded out, and the porn faded in, we sat on the bed. Julia was the first to speak."I like my penis now," were her first words."Pardon." It's growing on me," she said. "I hated it to start with, and it just makes me think about sex all day but I think I. Then write about it telling me all the naughty details. I had to do this every day until she saw me. We chatted for a bit and we finally set a date to meet one week later.I got to work watching porn and my descriptions. It was torturous because my cock wanted to become erect but it was forced to stay in its flaccid state. Then I had to relive the torture while I wrote a detailed description of what I watched. This process usually took longer than the 20 minutes of porn because I am not a very. All I could ever think about whenever I see her since that day was how I wish I could make her find me attractive enough to want to sleep with me. But there was nothing I could do, given that she was with someone.The following story is my fantasy. Also, I have yet to have sex. So certain details may be inaccurate or exaggerated.PROLOGUEOne day after going out with my crush and our friends, she offered to drop a few of us on her way home. I called shotgun.After an hour or so, I was the last one.