" Come to Daddy." Still lifeless, Jeff cuddles close to Sean. "Why don't you go to the bathroom, Jeff. Then we'll cuddle again." I can wait. You know,...ever since God spoke through me, terrible things keep happening to me." Yes, my father says that happens often. Spiritual warfare." I don't understand." Well, let's say you're playing dodge ball. If you get into the thick of battle you're likely to get hit. If you stay back, playing it safe, you probably wouldn't get hit." So I should play it. Where is the girl?" Had they hurt or even killed her? "She's nothing to you. Let her go. I don't even know her. I'm the one you want."Tim's eyes hardened at the almost possessive way the man on the floor talked about Abby. Raising his arm a little higher, holding his arm a little stiffer, he said, "The girl," he began, emphasizing the word "girl," "is none of your concern, dirtbag. You have bigger things to worry about." Tony? Are we clear? Can we move out?" Clear," Tony replied, coming back. . Sometimes."The brunette glared at him, and the darker haired one backed off.That night, laying on the bed, Jack could hear the two talking again, but not very well. He heard laughter and joking around, but that was pretty much it as he turned up the TV in the bedroom. He snuggled into the blankets, propping himself up on one elbow on his side."Hey," Joe said coming into the room."Hey hey," Jack said, not removing his gaze from the TV.He didn't see Blake, naked, behind his lover. He lowered. I had to be able to anticipate his needs, without having to ask him.So many times I would kneel at his feet, open up his zipper and start sucking his penis, only to have nothing happen. Or worse, to have him brush me away. "Not now," he would say."When?" I would ask."I don't know, just not now."It was frustrating, and the first thing I had to learn was how not to sulk. I was his, after all, and I was learning how to understand his moods and needs, not the other way around. So if it wasn't right.