.?" It's not even to the point of saying, 'Yet' yet."Rather than pretend I could convince myself to wear a dress or something like that, I put on a pa...r of Gina's old jeans that sagged because I had no butt and a fitted light blue v-neck Lycra tee and a pair of her Keds that looked the exact same as the men's shoe. It was more gay than girl. A funk came over me before I started the truck.On the road at my normal work time I arrived in the shopping district by ten just when the stores opened but. I held my breath and hoped she didn’t. ‘OK, Deke,’ she said softly. ‘I just feel sad thinking about you here alone.’ ‘Would it help to know that I’m not sad?’ I asked. ‘Not really,’ she answered, pushing the last bites of her food around with her fork. I stood up to take my empty plate to the sink. After I had rinsed it off and began to put away the uneaten food, Miranda’s phone began to ring. Because I was closest to it, I picked it up from the counter and handed it to her. She looked at the. “Divorce,” I mouthed silently.Bethany helped Carol bring the kids inside, and I took Jesse with me. I went to my office and wrote out Gwen Meyer’s phone number and address and went back to the kitchen where Bethany was making hot chocolate. I handed Carol the paper.“Carol, this is the lawyer who helped me get everything straight with my strange relationships. She does divorces as well. Give her a call. I need to get back to work, but you’re in good hands with Bethany!”“OK,” she said, fighting. " Is she still sleeping or did you put her back to sleep." Still sleeping. We did not do anything last night, and I got out of bed before something could happen this morning. I know that's not being a good host, but then again, how are you supposed to treat a little girl like that?" She's not a little girl. What is she six-six, six-eight or more?" You know what I mean, what is she twenty, twenty-one at the most." I will be twenty-one next month," came from Deanne as she came out onto the patio,.