I was definitely a narcissist. She handed me the larger dildo and said, now turn around. Were going to 69. I felt a thrill of excitement and complied ...agerly, swivelling around and positioning myself so that my head was now between her legs. She bent her knees, giving my hands room to work. I heard the buzz of the vibrator behind me and suddenly felt its tip press lightly against my still-sensitive clit, and my hips jerked from the shock. Start slowly, she said. Just lick me first. You know. .. were... Oh Gary," she shrieked and was crying again.I couldn't stand it any longer. This was not Gary's fault, it was not some "Plan." I had fucked up and now I had cost my parents their last child. If I didn't get out of there soon I was going to go insane. I waited until the emotional moment had passed and pulled Gary aside. "I can't do this Gary. You were right. I'm sorry. I know it's wrong, but I have to leave. Please take me out of here." I clutched at the lapels of his coat. "Don't. It is like you get tons of brilliant shopping coupons but you aren’t allowed to use them!I was getting frustrated and wished my girlfriend experienced the pleasure of sex at least once so that she would start wanting it more and more. I was trying all sorts of things to make it happen, including forcing her. But it all went in vain as my lover wouldn’t budge an inch.At one point, I was too sexually frustrated that I was okay with someone else having my girlfriend for the first time too, so she. She had looked so lovely when the beautyconsultant had finished with her, but Jacqui had not uttered asingle word from the time the beautician had arrived atJacqui's chair until they arrived home at the end of the day. She had, however, more than made up for that silence once shehad gotten her Mother behind closed doors. Laurie had finally resorted to a little magical probing tofigure out what had provoked so violent a reaction. It wouldhave been funny had it not been so sad. Jacqui's still.