I quickly jumped out of the window and reached for the light switch. She can't see me in the dark. I peer around the edge of the window and can still ...ee in the room. She is now pulling her stockings down, slowly, first the left leg, then the right. Then she stood up, reached high into the air, her robe came open, and she reached down and rubbed her tits. I just stood there. I could not believe what I was seeing. Could she see me? Did she know I was watching? I glanced back out and she was now. ***A FEW DAYS LATER***"I just got off the phone with John," my mother said as she walked inside my room. "He was telling me how much he enjoyed our last meeting and how it's all he thinks about these days. To make a long story short, he's willing pay us more money for another private meeting. This time it would be at his place." Well I can't say I'm that surprised, that was one hell of a show we put on for him..." Look, I can understand if you don't want to go. But please remember that he has. It's like the kid in the convenience store hold up. It wasn't just that you were in the store, but that you put yourself out there to do the right thing. The same thing happened with the preacher and the Chinese restaurant. You could have ignored it and turned away, but not you. Some people try to live a long life. I think you try to live a full life." Sounds way to grand to me," one of Alex's sailors said. "I think, it's like Max said. Shit just happens to her. Some people are just shit. It’s about what’s going on in our hearts, about accepting it and being true to it, whatever the contradictions, because the pain of not being true is often the greater cost. Murmuring ‘whatever’, I wash the mugs summoning the last brave bone in my body, he senses my anxiety and steps up behind placing his hands upon my hips and I feel his lips kissing the nape of my neck, it feels electric. His hands glide about my tummy and I turn, letting him nuzzle my neck, my chin, cheeks, forehead, hair.