.Sultry siren grabs you by the hands and drags you up on the tablekicking and protesting. She pins your hands way above your headwatching you squirm a...d shout. Passersby look down laughing at the oddlil man thrashing his body and legs wildly on the table."Help me he cries!" his eyes pleading.They just snicker and walk away as Sassy and Vixen giggle looking downon him. He struggles more wildly pleading as Sassy takes her finger andruns it from the tip of his chin, down his chest and slowly. "Remember, look but don't touch. If you have to, pick on someone yourown size! You have to work up to someone like Hal, honey. And you'llnever really be woman enough for him!"That's what you think, I thought, looking back at her calmly. I battedmy eyes at her a few times but said nothing. Hal chuckled. Jessicalooked at me a moment longer, trying to reinforce her warning Ithought. "Fix your lipstick, honey!" was all she said. "You've smearedit!" Then she left.A moment later we heard. Now they were older, Julian, Dick and Ann wanted to rediscover it independently for themselves. Naturally their cousin George and her dog Timmy also, because they had always been on adventures together. Her Father smiled encouragingly, "Well you will all have to work together and that will do you good but I expect you all to follow Julian's example and stay away from undesirable oiks and other riffraff." Relieved at his official blessing, Ann ran forward to hug her father just as her other. I closed my eyes and wailed. If this is some mental illness manifesting itself, I want to be ill for the rest of my life, I want to be haunted by you every single day.I opened my eyes – he was gone. I felt the glass with my palms, the t-shirt dropped. I jumped up and looked down to see where he was but he was nowhere. My knees gave in curling me into a naked mess on the floor. My eyes open, like a zoom lens, unblinkingly focusing on the skin of my arm next to my head. For months, I tried so.