"You don't have to do this", I told her.She leaned in and kissed me on the lips, "I want this, I want to feel you make love to me", she explained, "bu... I'm scared too because I've never done it before." You're a virgin", I asked and she just nodded her head. "But you said last night that you'd given blow jobs before." Yeah, but that's as far as I let him go."Part of me wanted to stop this right there, but that part was in the head above my shoulder and not the one straining against my shorts,. The voice said, ‘even though you denied me, I will not tell you another thing, you can only know it if you see it yourself’. The man fell into a slumber deeper than the deepest he had ever known. Floating, floating away he began to drift along a river there were no maps for. He saw himself as a young babe, being held for the first time by his parents, the vision contained the perception of innocence. He saw the warmth of love emanating from mother to child, how readily the baby absorbed it.. The ranch backs up to a National Forest so we have millions of acres to ride our horses in addition to the 450,000 acres the ranch encompassed. Successive generations have improved and expanded the ranch and its holdings though it had been difficult with successive generations with the federal government instituting inheritance taxes, and state and local taxes seemed to be going up ever year along with land values. The ranch was especially affected with the near proximity of some high-end ski. * * * As it happens we met once again, many years later. Coming out of the coffee bar in the railway station with a beaker of coffee to go, I bumped into Jane. Heading for the same train. With half an hour to her stop, we sat facing each other over the narrow table, knees touching briefly, pulling apart, and then returning to companionable intimacy. I knew at once that in a way nothing had changed. I knew how she would speak. I felt my throat swell, could not hold back a smile of joy. She.