" Said Dr. Levinowitz in his professional, New York Jewish accent. He spoke with a kind of boredom, as if I was just another patient to him. Another s...d 18 year old girl. I wondered why I even still came to see him, remembering that it was because of my undying wish to see my father happy, and the only way to do that was to pretend that I was getting better; that I was happy too. "They're the same every single night, Dr. I see that horrible man's face in everything I do."The room seemed to spin. "Hi Kelly!" I say with a genuine smile. Of the four new Angels, Kelly'sprobably the one I like the most- though that is due to two factors.One, she defected from Constellation at the same time that members ofHeavenly Talent were going the other way, and secondly, she's alsotransgendered. Unlike me, she's currently pre-op- though by the end ofthe week, that will have changed."Everyone's already here," Kelly says with a nervous giggle. "Justwaiting on you..." I laugh as Kelly hands me a pink. I use to go to her shop by morning 5.30 no one will be in road and in her house also her husband and son will be sleeping she use to wake up by 5.30 and use to clean her house entrance and use to put some (kolam in Tamil) that time I use to go there just to see her body as I talk to her. I just go like buying some things she use to ask me to wait till she finishes her work as she use to come from her bed her dress want be dressed properly. I use to watch her and days passed but one day I went. Even in her sixties she still kept her hair long, braided in a single braid that fell toward the small of her back. Her back was strong, as were her heart and her mind. Jeremy loved his mother deeply. Perhaps too deeply for his own good, if his friends were to be believed. She was everything to him. He came to her whenever he was confused, estranged from understanding the throws of life, or hungry for forgiveness. He would fall deep within her eyes, under the spell of her soothing voice and her.