. My husband liked to have passed out. Month’s salary.”“And you’ve been here...”“Two years, almost. I do all the HR. Beck and I collaborat... on the insurance and benefits, because Beck also takes care of our accounting people up the hall. It’s nuts. I get to BE what I trained to be, and they LET me ... Encourage me.”“But I’m a babysitter.”“Hon,” she grinned, “those ain’t your standard rug rats. And if they just up and chose you, somebody saw something...”“Cindy,” I said. “I think it was. She was a virgin when we married she knew I had sex once and it kind of upsether because she said she had thought I was as pure as she was.when our k**s were young teensI had asked my wife if she ever thought about what it would be like to have sex with another man she replied by telling me to shut up and said I was crazy. I had been reading about otherhusbands who had watched their wife have sex with other men this really interested and excitedme. At night when we would have sex I would ask. ”I didn’t like the sound of this. I was still new to sex, and I wasn’t entirely sure what I was doing. When she took control, I didn’t have to worry, but what if I did it wrong? “But what if I’m hurting you? What if I’m screwing up or you need me to stop?”She bit her lip. “I’ve heard of people using a word for that sort of thing. How about if I say ‘Waterloo’, you’ll stop. Otherwise, keep going, even if I struggle, okay?”I nodded soberly. Part of me wondered if I would be able to keep going.. "After another long, painful quiet period, he finally spoke again. "It'sone thing to date, quite another to look at a lifetime commitment. WhenI ask a girl out, and we go out a few times, I can tell what's in herheart. Some of us like the idea of dating the frat prez, and other wantsex, but it's never, ever love!" Les, 'I' love you, but am afraid to commit to a sexual relationshipwith you because I can never give you a family," I wept.He smiled, Why not make a wish at the Wishing Well?"I looked.