I provide him with my love and care, the submission of my body and sexual spirit, and anything else he ever needs. It's a highly unequal relationship....I am deeply in love with him. But he is a deeply violent man. He is a highly promiscuous man. When he isn't using me, he's sleeping with someone else. When he's not sleeping with someone else, he's drinking. And when he's done drinking, he's beating me. I don't mind that he is a physical abuser. Better me than someone who doesn't like it or want. You know if we cross that line, there is no walking back, it's done"..... Barry nodded "yes". "You're young and fertile, in your prime...I am unprotected and fertile.. I'm still not telling you no but you need to think about that...YOU need to decide inside or out...I will live with which ever YOU choose without regret". Barry replied "you mean", she hushed him saying "Barry, I love you more than life! I mean, YOU choose". He smiled, she asked "do you love me" then turned before he could. At first she was concerned about being so responsive to Ralph, because then Michael would see how Ralph could turn her on like no man ever had. But then she realized that that was a silly thought. Her husband would get more turned on if he knew Ralph was a better lover than him, and if she responded to Ralph in ways that she never had with him. So she just allowed herself to enjoy what Ralph was doing to her.In the corner, Michael was dressed in a robe, watching Ralph pleasure his wife. He. When time came to sleep, somehow she hadn't been drowsy and had lain there for several hours thinking about Royal Benson Kennels. She had made an important decision. When she had saved up enough money, perhaps $1500, she would leave New York and begin again. New clothes new hair style, new town... new life... one with a steady job, a nice young man and a normal sex life. She would tell everyone that she was allergic to dogs or something so she would never be put in a position of temptation from.