I struggled over questions like, did my mother really love me? Was I a pervert? Why didn't I have any friends? I couldn't study or concentrate and ... felt worse and worse. A few weeks into the term I had my first test in Mr. Harris' science class. I liked science but I hadn't done the reading. The test was so confusing and I didn't know any of the answers. Sometimes I didn't understand any of the questions. Towards the end of the test I just started crying. Vanessa and some of the other. Youngmen in Tanzania were forbidden to have any physical relations withfemales before marriage. Stewart told me that, with all that pent-upsexual tension, one of the less-publicized "traditions" in his countrywas for some young men to adopt the female role in pre-maritalrelationships. He said that it was tacitly accepted for young, unmarriedmen to have physical relations, and that these relationships usuallyended casually after courting began.Stewart knew as well as anyone about West Texas. Having always been the centre of attention, many ancient battles had been fought around it. Now the only battle was with the money needed for it’s leaking roof and overgrown garden. No local family could afford such a huge property, so only people brought in by the motorways could match the money needed for expensive slates, and hardwood window frames. The present couple were the typical property moguls who kept to their own circle , and lived another life altogether. But recently. "I am going downstairs now for my evening. Don't go anywhere." you chuckle. "Oh, I'll also have this with me." and you hold up the remote for the egg. As you leave the room I see you look at it and push a button. I feel a stirring within me as the egg begins to vibrate.I hear people arriving and soon the dull buzz of chatting and laughter. There isn't anything I can do so I close my eyes and after a few minutes, fall asleep. When I wake, it is dark and I still hear the sound of your party.