Where was he now? Fuck knows, but he’d gone, anyway, and, frankly, I didn’t care where – just so long as he didn’t come back. But I did care a...out being in debt. ‘You’ll be OK,’ he’d said, ‘no sweat, Julie, honest, they’ll just love you! Fifty grand a year, more in no time at all, you’ll see.’ Yeah, I saw all right. The film company who were bound to ‘love me’ had gone down the toilet, together with the film I had auditioned for, and where was my half-completed course at drama school going to. And, later, when her mother came out of the bedroom, her eyes were often red, as if she'd been crying.But the noises her mother was making right now didn't sound like she was in pain or sad in the least. They were tiny noises, but they were happy noises.Bella somehow knew what she needed, even though she had only rarely had that in her life, back when she was first married. She also knew she couldn't have it ... not in this crowded wagon, with her children sleeping right next to her. That. "I knew the length was right," she beamed.She next took the dress and helped me to get it on over my head and thenbuttoned the back in place, making sure that I did not look into themirror until she was ready. The dress fit like it was made for me, butshe was not done yet. The last piece was the veil which was topped offwith a faux diamond tiara. Once that was in place, she said, "Voila," andopened the closet door to reveal a floor length mirror. I stood gaping,with my mouth wide open at the. At that point I guessed what he was doing I was shocked and blurted out “Joel are you wanking?” He froze and stopped.With a worried tone he replied “I thought you were asleep, sorry” Still shocked though I found it slightly funny I said “I can’t believe you were having a wank in my bed with me next to you” Joel replied “sorry s*s, I haven’t had chance since my rooms being decorated and I never thought about going anywhere else, you won’t tell anyone will you?” At that point I felt sympathetic.