Do you hate me for saying that? Does it bother you to have a wife who wants to fuck other men?" I don't hate you at all," said Alan, kissing her on th... cheek. "I love you as much now as I ever have. If you want to have an open marriage and be able to fuck other people, then it's all right with me. I would rather share you with other men than lose you forever.Besides, I like watching other men fuck you." He smiled as he spoke and gave her a reassuring hug."Thank you for understanding," she said.. I was happy for Susheela. I was even happy for Jim. I was not happy for myself. I put on a sort of 'happy indifference' — I even helped Jim plan his Christmas present outing for Su ... Oh, God...I loved him.But I loved him too much to have him just because ... I don't know, because he pitied me? Because he felt he owed me something? I wanted to be sure he loved me.When Su died, I mourned my friend. But it was much worse watching Jim come apart. I watched him functioning like an automaton, going. The boy told us that he usually mostly only looked at porn sites at college – didn’t have much privacy at home and shared a bedroom with his brother.The boy said he thought about the watersports porn he’d seen most times he masturbated – in the morning and evening he usually did it in the shower pissing on himself after. He also loved doing it in the toilets at college because he liked the smell. I joked that doing it so often he wouldn’t have much cream left for today. He smiled - said he’d. Some of them simply could not afford it.The children went outside to play with their new toys and the grown ups stayed inside. The women congregated in the kitchen, making preparations for the afternoon meal and the men sat around talking. Diana's mother, sister, sisters-in-law and nieces all treated Lynda like she was one of the family. And Tom fit right in with Charles and all three of Diana's older brothers, brother-in-law, one nephew and her father. Everyone was laughing and the.