"Shhh Amanda please."I remove my hand limping slightly over to my bed I sit. Amanda comes over demanding what the fuck happened."I lost my virginity."...I mutter. She gasps"What. When?" Last night" With?" She demands "Jake" I say barely above a whisper"You meant nerdy Blake from science?" No I mean Jake as in err my umh neighbor"SilenceI glance up at her. Her mouth gaping open. Eyes wide. I nudge her shoulder snapping her out of it. She closes her mouth before turning to look at me a smile on her. ...They say only fools rush in.Yes even I had once lived a normal straight heterosexual life until Istarted wearing earrings. I used to be known as "Peter" but don't go gochasing the dead, I'm Portia now, my Dad's now called Samantha and my sonis called Michelle.Gradually as the years wore on, more and more of the men in our townstarted to see things differently and to consider their masculinity aconstruct or pretence and to live their lives as women either havinggender reassignment surgery or. I was enjoying our time together and looked forward to seeing her more and more. Although, I thought guiltily, not for the sake of science.In nineteen years I’ve only ever kissed guys; never really entertained the thought of girls although I had friends who’d experimented under the cover of darkness at slumber parties. I’m a straight down the heterosexual line – lost my virginity to one and fantasise about them when I get myself off. But Maitena had that arse to die for and I spent so much time. Di.There wasn't even any fresh coffee.Jeff was standing with the note in his hand when the kitchen door opened and Dave and Evie walked in."Looks like it's sandwiches for lunch," Jeff commented."Oh, don't be silly," Evie said. "Well, unless you had rather have sandwiches, that is." Then to Jeff, "Your wives cooked several steaks and left them in the refrigerator. After working out this morning, I'm surely going to have one of them. They are all eating sandwiches in the basement, but since we.